what do you when you're fed up with the status quo? when you realize that there are certain things in the universe that you want to be different that never will be? how do you handle it when you realize you will never EVER be satisfied with your life, because of facts of nature that exist outside of your influence? the only reason i haven't killed myself yet is because i feel like i have so much to give to this world, but now i really don't feel like giving it. since when did the world deserve anything i could offer it? where is my reward? oh, i'll be rewarded in death? then why keep them waiting. let's go.